this is what you say to seem alternative.

it's sad...cause i've had this diary for two years now, & almost all that's happened to me during that time is in here, even though it's so damn abstract even i can't understand what i'm rambling about half of the time, it's still me. cause that's the way i was a few years ago.

emoish, melodramatic & arrogant.

so i'm not a pain junkie anymore, the sole nick makes me wanna punch my own face, really.

for now you can see my très lovely façade on here but i'll write anything meaninful in there cause too many people i know in real life know about it.. & read my slightly more concrete rants here. though it's probable i'll come back to dland soon (andrew's my sweetheart).

that's right, i'm a mainstream whore. so be it.

yeah&uhuh